Another psychic reading

OnThursday I had another psychic reading.  This time over the phone for an hour. I’ve not had anything like it before so I wasn’t sure what to expect.

I called up and Jacqueline told me that she had been tuning in for the 15 minutes prior and she had picked up several things.

The first thing was that I needed more quiet time.  I was encouraged to spend some time in nature or in quiet so that I can hear the messages that I need.  Whether that is a walk in nature, at a health spa, quiet weekend etc it doesn’t matter but to be quiet.

The second was that there are opportunities all around me right now, however because I’m not getting enough quiet time I’m not spotting them.  In addition self doubt is holding me back.

She suggested meditation and prayer and we spoke about how to apply this.  It is a mark of my development that I didn’t run a mile when I heard the word prayer as lets just say I have a few issues with Christianity.  However I have noticed the word meditation everywhere recently, and also the word prayer and I am becoming open to praying without taking on all the gubbins that usually goes with organised religion.

We spoke about using affirmations in my prayers and having a postive outcome.  She suggested starting with a simple prayer of what I am grateful for.
She said that I had the energy of Archangel Ariel who assists with courage and standing up for our beliefs and by ’speaking my truth’ I may be able to inspire others.  She wanted to reassure me that it is safe to speak up.  We spoke about a work situation that had been bothering me as I hadn’t stood up for my beliefs and I was feeling guilty about it.

I asked about the ‘opportunites’ and asked if it was to do with work or starting a family and if there was a conflict between what I wanted.  She doused with a pendulum and got that the opportunities are to do with both family and work and there was no conflict.  I didn’t give her any information about what the work I wanted to do is and she said she sensed I was a ‘lightworker’ which is to do with working for the highest good of the planet and celebrating diversity and love for all people.  I hadn’t heard the term before and I like it 
We spoke about my fears at starting a family and the reading she got was a fear of losing control and that I need to surrender to the path.  The affirmations I have been using since is “I manifest an opportunity to have a family and all our financial needs met for the highest good of all.” “I create a situation where I can stay at home with my babies and all our financial needs are met.”  She suggested focusing on the whole package of health, finances, baby and happiness.

The thing with these types of affirmations is to state what outcome you want and allow the universe to worry about the how.  For example if you fixate on a particular type of job or income stream then potentially you rule out a infinite number of other possibilities.

I also asked about my health.  She did a scan and picked out all the areas of my body where I still have the remants of eczema!  The only one that wasn’t a hit was my shoulders – I’ve just looked that up in Louise Hay’s book and it represents carrying a burden which is how I feel a little.  She is going to mail me with some follow up info because we ran out of time.

Funnily enough the next day at work when I got in a colleague who has a one year old spoke eloquently and passionately about the joys of parenthood and how she wished she had done it early.

As a result of my reading I am ensuring I meditate and say affirmations every day.  I am doing a chakra colour medition.  Also I need to start the prayer too.  I also did my first quiet time on Saturday morning and decided on the name for my business which has been bugging me for over a year now!  I am also checking with the muscle testing regularly throughout the day to get answers to many and various questions.  Feeling very calm and peaceful at the moment and sense of quiet excitment like on Chrismas-eve anticipating the future.

Week 2.

I had a bi-aura treatment this evening – I am really feeling the energy move now as I am being worked on.  I still find it hard to stand up for the majority of the session – but wow, I could feel the energy tingling all over and I drank 3 glasses of water during the session I was so thirsty.  Marie said that all the blocked stuff that she was struggling to pull off me a few weeks ago was just ‘ripe for the picking’.  I think the Tai Chi plus all the postive visualisations I have been doing about being healthy and having postive energy are working. I could feel a lot of vibration around my head this time which I haven’t felt before and she said that the energy felt much more spiritual than before.  I have felt much more open to spiritual ideas recently.  I was so closed to religion especially christianity after my experiences of dating a christian that I completely shut out that aspect of my life.  Now that I am more open to it – I am coming back to a more spiritual way of thinking.  Not a dogmatic religious belief full of rules and doctrine, but more awareness about how we are all connected by energy and how are intention causes changes in that energy.

I have an issue that I need to work though about work.  I have been doing lots of visualisations for a job that is 4 days a week to allow me to do healing work 1 day a week.  I feel guilty about wanting to leave where I am, although the work is interesting, the atmosphere is not how I want to spend my time.  I need to work though the guilt I feel at letting people down.  I also need to work out why I don’t feel I deserve to do energy healing 5 days a week if I want to!  I met a guy on a tube on Saturday who said that his girlfriend was making £90k a year as a healer charging £75 an hour at a spa in London.  I really need to raise the game of my visualisations!  Why settle for just 1 day a week – why do I think that is all I deserve?  I am aware that I will get what I focus on – so why don’t I raise the bar to what I want from what I think I  can get?

I also met a lovely friend of a friend in London on Saturday.  He had been though a really similar experience to me – in that when he gave up his, shall we say, hedonistic lifestyle – he too became covered head to toe in eczema.  He got rid of it though meditation and postive visualisation.  It was so lovely to meet someone who had been though the same range of emotions and experience – made me feel less of a freak!  It also gives me the confidence to tackle that last bit – I’ve made so much progress in returning myself to health that I am looking foward to the next steps

End of week 1.

I weighed myself on Sunday and have lost 5lb – fantastic! Now I know a lot of this is just water and glycogen loss and not fat but it still feels wonderful.

I did the Hydro Women’s 5km run on Sunday and really struggled. I managed to run about two thirds of it which shows how much my fitness has dropped by as I used to be able to do 5km without stopping. I’ve also caught a cold since and am really blocked up. I found last year that every time I exercised my immune system couldn’t cope with it. I will stick to Tai Chi for now and add some weights into my programme in two weeks time (once the very busy two weeks at work are at an end).

We had lunch at ‘Giraffe’ on Kensington High Street. I ordered the ‘very healthy chicken salad’ and surprisingly welcomed it rather than feeling deprived. The mind-set of this diet is really good. First of all you view food as something that can enhance your hormonal state if you eat the correct things so you feel like you are doing yourself good. Second, you telll yourself at every meal ‘I can’t each much now, because I’ll be eating again in less than four hours’.  This is really working for me. My portion size has definitely shrunk.

I enjoyed my first carb load meal on Sunday evening. I made lentil soup and thoroughly enjoyed it.

Low-carb week nearly at an end

I am coming to the end of the first low-carb week.  I have to say it has been much easier than I thought it would be.  It helped that I was off work so was able to eat when I needed to rather than having to prepare in advance.   Next week I need to pack up some suitable snacks to take to work such as fruit, peanuts, cottage cheese and cooked meats that I can keep in the fridge.

I haven’t missed carbs at all and I’ve only felt hungry when I left it too long between meals.  Apart from the second day, my carb cravings have disappeared.  I haven’t even felt jealous watching people tuck into prawn crackers, rice and noodles.

Yesterday I was able to even low-carb at the chinese!  I had crispy duck for starters and avoided the plum sauce (shame as that is what makes it!).  For my main I skipped the rice and had steamed crab and fried beansprouts.  My technique with the nut crackers needs to be improved!

I’m really looking forward to finding out what progress I have made this week.  I don’t feel as bloated as before which is a good sign.